I think "ideal reality" is a paradox. What is the literary term for two sets of words that are paradoxes, when used together, i Forget. So much that does not stay, in the memory. It always boils down to feelings, and feelings chart our experience and our memories.
How, then, are we supposed to study this? And make it meaningful at the same time? I'm having the usual exTISSential crisis, I suppose. But I think its coming at the right time. I needed this politicisation of my thoughts. But I must remember to not give up on all the subjectivity and personal that is mine.